A New Journey

August 5, 2010

Next week starts a new journey for the twins and me. They will be attending daycare for the very first time and I will be trying to find ways to utilize my new freedom. I actually feel sad that they will be gone from me 40-50 hours/week. As I laid each one down for their morning nap, I took a nice long look at their beautiful features. I know that I will truly miss my little munchkins even though they give me a serious run for my money EVERY DAY. It took me this long to actually put them in a daycare because I did not want to miss those 1st memories. Even though there are a few more 1st memories to come, I know that I must go back to work and get this dream of mines on the road before time passes me by. It has already been 5 years since I graduated from college, and I have yet to find my niche. Slacker! That’s all I can say.

This past week I have really been doing some life changes. I now say, “Oh, well.” The house is a mess…Oh, well. The clothes are piling up in the laundry room…Oh, well. The babies fell asleep with their day clothes on…Oh, well. I didn’t cook dinner…Oh, well. Shoot! I am tired. Physically tired. Running after two crawling, adventurous babies is a LOT of WORK!!! Then trying to do my daily house chores (cooking, cleaning, laundry, checking the mail…), please , the day just flies on by and it seems like I never accomplish everything.

Everytime I turn around, there is laundry to be done, things needed from the grocery, a bottle to be made, food to be prepped, a diaper to be changed, someone to be fed…..and the list goes on and on and on. Where do I find time for me? Starting now, some things on that list does not get done in order for me to focus on ME. Oh but my children do get fed and I try to eat at least twice with some snacking in between. But to some it all up.

I am going to make time for me!